Alcohol
it
grips you
and takes you in
takes control of your thoughts
of your actions
but does it?
it reduces your control
it leaves you with less inhibitions
it can make you happy
it can make you sad
sadness
where you hate who you are
you don't want to be alive
you don't want to feel
you want to crawl away
you don't care about the pain and suffering you cause others
you actions hurt others
almost like you want them to suffer
you want to hurt them
things you say cause pain
things you do cause pain
irreversable pain
suffering
scared
worried
helpless
angry
all at once
hating what it does to people
turning me off it again
not wanting to be in its grip
not wanting to become like the people before me
hating what it has done what it does do to them
to everyone
the pain
i don't want that again
i can't take that again
never again
LAH November 1999