Self Preservation
i
have no right
no right to feel like this
and yet i do
i can't help what i feel
it is there within me
but i know i shouldn't feel this
knowing that it is silly
and yet unable to prevent it
hating myself for letting myself care
wanting to stop
needing to stop
do i need to distance myself even more?
i just might have to
to regain the focus
and to stop myself
self preservation
its something i need to do
something i have to do
to be hurt again
i can't cope with
not right now
let me gain my footing again
before i hurt myself again
Lisanne
May 2000